Back From The Grave:

So as you may have noticed, I haven’t been blogging lately. The reason it this - I had to get my laptop fixed by Apple. But here is the thing - they did it for free and they did it in a day and a half. It is working awesomely now and I’m ready to continue to take over the world!

A Temporary Loss of Innocence:

Ok, the title kind of sounds racy, but let me explain. For those of you who know me or are very observant, you know that I wear on my right ring finger a True Love Waits band. This ring has signified my commitment to staying sexually pure until marriage and during my marriage, staying committed to purity with my wife.

I forgot to put it on today.

I never do that. There was no reason or moral failure that made me not put it on, but I noticed it as soon as I was half way to work. I almost late, so I couldn’t turn around and get it. All day, I’ve felt almost incomplete. It is the most bizarre feeling in the world. I can’t describe it, but I know that it feels like something isn’t right. Sure, I’ve taken it off before, but I never experienced this in the past.

This whole thing got me thinking: is this what it really feels like when you’ve given away your innocence or if it has been robbed from you? I don’t think I can possibly fathom the answer to that question. I know it is stupid for me to think that I can relate just by not putting wearing a tangible reminder.

Even if I could fathom the latter and worse of the two questions, I must remind myself of the freedom which is in Christ to be cleansed and forgiven for all of the filth which sin (of own or the weight that we feel when we are effected by the poor choices someone else) causes us to feel guilt, regret, and shame.

In the words of one of my favorite songs, On Distant Shore (by none other than the late and great Five Iron Frenzy):

“With resillience unsurpassed I crawl my way to You at last. And one my knees, I wept at Your feet, “I finally believe that You still love me.”

This sums up the unconditional love of Christ, no matter whether we have innocence or not, He loves us. All we have to do is believe that it is true and live in that freedom. In all reality, none of us are innocent of sin...except throught Christ who saves men and women based only on their choice to ask Him for it. It is this indescriminate, unconditional love which will carry us through until the end.