Conflict of interest:

In my life, here at BBC and at home, I have seen much drama and have been involved in a little. I've had my share of meaningless relationship, that is a grand total of two, but I have a weak appetite for the meaningless. Honestly, what is the sense in getting into a relationship for....well.. the sake of being in a relationship? The is none.

For some strange reason, at the point where I truly don't care about a relationship, one of my dear friends decides that today is the day to try to set me up. I take that back, not so much set me up, but decide to tell me who she thinks I should be with. I was taken aback. I'm not sure how many times I've had someone play matchmaker for me and they have no sweet clue as to the type of girl I'm looking for.

Just a matter of clarification, because some of you, my faithful bloggians, are simple minded and do not see every side of what I'm saying... by the way, forgive the insult, I speak the truth in love. I am not a shallow person. I find some people to be attractive not on the basis of their looks, but who they are. For example, there are some girls that are absolutely gorgeous that have the intelligence and personality of a grease-burned french fry (my apology to the fry for comparing you to such). There are also some girls that do not meet the world's standard of beauty that I find freaking amazing people. What I find attractive in a girl and what I look for are kind of unusual things. I guess in a way you could call me picky, but hey, BBC is not the end of the line my friends, I'm sure that I could strike a diamond outside this place.

(A side note to the girls who read my blog: You don't hafta look like Brittany to be beautiful, just being who you are speaks more for your image than her fake....um....nevermind...you get the point)

This calls to question my own ability to make personal choices. I think that after 3 and a halfish years of being single and praying for God's will and direction in relationships that I should be able to discern what is good/smart and not. Having interest in someone that a) I don't know b) have nothing in common with c) doesn't like my friends d)is not the type of person I'm looking for.... (and the list continues) ... would be just plain stupid. So a word of advice: unless I am weeping, gnashing my teeth, and begging you.... don't try to set me up...that's what mothers are for.

Anywho, back from that rabbit trail I have to say this: she?s not a terrible person. But honestly, we don't jive. She's not the type of person I could hang out with nor does she meet Damien's Standard of Requirements for Dating Purposes (a few simple traits that I look for and find attractive) That doesn't speak anything against her, I think it speaks more against me.

In the words of Munch "Not gunna happen."

For those mathematically minded readers here is the equation: 1 single guy (1SM) plus 1 single girl(1SF), multiplied by the amount of outside pressures(OPr), divided by lack(-I)of interest, plus relationship (R times pi) times interest is less than the possibility (I < P) = no relationship(-R). So you're basic equation is gunna look a little something like this:

OPr(1SG + 1SF)
------------------- = Rpi(I < P) = -R
-I