A Non-Entertaining Blog:

Hey people, I just want to start with a disclaimer: this is probably not going to be a funny post. I'm sorry, but I'm running short on wit tonight, I just need to write.

Lately, I've been challange, unknowingly to those whom this applies, to use this heart of mine to love people unconditionally. The absolutely biggest challange to that is loving your family when you're frustrated with them... it isn't like a constant frustration, but when certain issues come up, you just really frustrated about them and stop caring. Am I totally alone in this?

While having a heated discussion the other day, I felt like I was getting no where. The main subject was changed as always and I remained unheard. I may not have all of the same life experiences, but I have studied for the past 5 years in the area of tension, yet I do not have a voice as an adult or a professional.

What is the most aggrivating is this. I feel like I really have been given a gift to love people, but situations like these make me feel like I don't have the heart-capacity to love people the way I should.

Here is the bottom line: I can't love anyone. I just can't do it. It is not possible for me to be able to do it on my own. Unless I love through Christ, my love will be a cheap front. Honestly, can any one of us care for people on our own with having alterior motives?

Seldom.