Once again I return and retort all which has been wrongfully done and done the wrong way. Yes, I speak in coded riddles because the main riddle is unknown to me. That is beside the point, because my main point is this: I'm done. I'm done worrying and wondering and playing "what if" scenerios. The truth is that it's over and it's probably best that way.

Maybe in the light of everything that has happened, I've seen the truth. I can't go on pretending that everything is going to be alright when it's not. No, I'm not angry at you, but I can't continue to make myself sick any more with trying to figure out your cryptic stories. I do care to know what's going on in your life, but I don't want to read about it. If you have something to say to me say it to my face.

(ironic that I am typing to someone on my blog... in reality this is a conversation already had... so I'm not being hypocritical)

As RK would say: "No I don't hate you, don't want to fight you. You know I'll always love you, but right now I just don't like you."

Ok, so maybe that's not truly how I feel. I don't hate, I don't want to fight, as a friend and brother - I love, and I am put out by the games. I don't want to be remembered with sarcasm and bitterness. Friend, return to me friendship... otherwise, what is it that we have?