Two (Three) down...... how many to go?:

“When you walk away, you don’t hear me say: ‘Please, oh, don’t go’. Simple and clean is the way that you’re making me feel tonight. It’s hard to let it go.” - Utada Hikaru (song “Simple and Clean” from Kingdom Hearts)

I am losing friends left and right. One is in Africa for the next 6 months to indefinitely, one is most likely joining the army, one is trying to figure out the direction which their next year is taking.

Here I stand with three of my best friends hanging in a balance of pivotal direction. I know how I want to pray for them: I want to pray that they all come back to school and everything is like the way it was at the beginning of last year: a brand new year... new beginnings.

“Hold me, whatever lies beyond this morning is a little later on. Regardless of warnings, the future doesn’t scare me at all... nothings like before.” - Utada Hikaru (song “Simple and Clean” from Kingdom Hearts)

It will not be the same without these two, potentially three friends. I wish I knew what direction God was directing both them and myself in. I have been praying all day today that God would bring clarity to each one of them. He knows a lot better than I do. I love these people. It’s hard to let it go....

“The daily things, like this and that and what is what, that keep us all busy are confusing me, that’s when you looked at me and said:”- Utada Hikaru (song “Simple and Clean” from Kingdom Hearts)

Day to day life without two(three) of my best friends scares me. I hate being a loner. I’ve done that whole thing before and it’s not always the greatest. Granted - it wouldn’t chance my enigmatic status much. I guess for now I prayer and wish that they all knew how much I love them and will miss them.

“‘Wish I could prove I love you, but does that mean I have to walk on water? When we are older you will understand it’s enough when I say so. Maybe some things are that simple.’”

“When you walk away, you don’t hear me say: ‘Please, oh, don’t go’. Simple and clean is the way that you’re making me feel tonight. It’s hard to let it go.” - Utada Hikaru (song “Simple and Clean” from Kingdom Hearts)